Exams are Finally Over!

Thank goodness, exams are finally over! I can finally kick back, relax, and actually talk to you guys!

Okay, so just in case this is the last post before the end of the world (which btw, I think is totally bogus and not real, so don't you worry your little heads off), i just want to say: I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3 thanks for reading my wonderful blog <3

Alright, here were some outstanding questions that I never got around to answering... I'm so sorry for the delay, guys. I really didn't mean to take so long. It's just all that studying, and my gosh, getting those marks back today after the fact.... *stupid, stupid, stupid mistakes!*

Q: Do you believe in 'flirtationships'? - via Twitter

JAAG: I break it down this way:  a relationship is when you and another person are totally in love with each other and you guys make time for each other and your own things so much so that you aren't smothered by each other and you aren't following one another around. There is trust and love, but no obsession. A friendship is when you are just good friends with someone, no romantic interests, no strings attached. You genuinely love that person but not in a romantic way. A flirtationship? Somewhere in between. I find that sometimes I flirt with guys because honestly, even though its a bad thing, it's my autopilot. There are some guys that I will flirt with more than others because they are cute or maybe, they are flirting back too. I know its a bad habit because I may be leading someone on, but in the event that this person has made it clear that they are not ready to get into a relationship and I have told myself that I don't like this person, well, there you have a flirtationship :)

Q: How can I be sure that my boyfriend is the one? We've been dating for three years during high school and now we are still dating and its our first year of university. First term is over but we are still madly in love. Do you think he is the one? - via Tumblr

JAAG: You will have to answer that one yourself, my friend! I think that it's really awesome that you and your boyfriend have been able to hold a relationship this long even though you both are going through so many different changes in your lives. But one thing you will have to confront is whether or not this love will last. For your sake, I personally hope that you two last forever and get married and start a family together. But be warned, something could happen and you may find yourself a single chick. Remember that now that you are out of high school you aren't restricted to the bounds of the classroom. You are a woman now, a woman who is capable of dating anyone you want. It's great that you two are able to work it out. As long as you two still love each other and are willing to sacrifice anything for each other, I would say that you have found yourself a winner. Best of luck!

Q: My parents want me to stop dating this girl because she is affecting my school work. I don't think that she is the problem though. How can I prove to them that she isn't? - via Twitter

JAAG: Ask yourself this: Are you spending so much time with her outside of school, so much time Facebooking or texting her that you can't get your assignments done on time? If this is so, then maybe you may need to rethink your homework location. In order to show your parents that you aren't obsessed with this girl (which you may or may not), start by cleaning up your act. Get those assignments in on time and finish your homework. Hand in any outstanding projects that you haven't done yet. Know that the faster you get your work done, the faster you can have free time to talk to your girl. Hopefully you aren't too hung onto her; remember, girls need space and time to do their homework too! :)

Q: Is there anything you can suggest on how to break up with my boyfriend? he has been following me around a lot lately, after I told him that I need space. He is suffocating me and I can't stand it. Help! - via Tumblr

JAAG: I've been in your situation, so I think I can help you out. The only thing I can't do for you is breaking up with the guy. That is something that you will have to sort out on your own. What I can offer is this: maybe try talking to the guy one more time. Make clear your expectations on how much time you want to hang out and that sometimes, you want to chill with your girls too. Give him a week to settle into this  new ideal. If he still isn't getting it, you will have to kiss this boy good bye. Unfortunately, I realize that some boys (especially if it's their first relationship) can get really clingy. Communicate what you want to see at first, but if it doesn't happen, then talk to him. Make it clear and to the point that you want to break up with him; don't beat around the bush. And if there is one thing that I have learned after all this time, don't try and plan out what you are going to say. Chances are, you are only going to say 15% of what you meant to say, and the rest, well, it came out of nowhere. I hope that everything works out for you!

******And finally, this question that I found so amusing....*****
Q: Is it true that you have a new celebrity crush? I just realized that there are less and less of pictures of Logan Henderson on your Tumblr :$ - via Tumblr

JAAG: Well, "you got me"! (that's a Jimmy Fallon quote) :) Logan Henderson and the boys of Big Time Rush are never far away from my heart, I still watch their show and still love their music and sing along, but recently I have fallen for Jimmy Fallon, the best Late Night host EVER. If you have never watched his show, I suggest that you YouTube it or tune in (record it, of course! The show airs incredibly late!) He is just so funny, an amazing singer, and his jokes are really good. He is nice and loveable and really, really attractive. Just saying :) My Tumblr has now been invaded by him. #likeaboss

There you have it ! The first snowfall happened in my town today, and I'm not sure if I want a snow day tomorrow or not. Probably not, though.

Also, keep praying for the victims of the Newtown, Conneticut shooting. All the children in the town have returned to school but I'm sure that parents, teachers and students alike have a new sense of fear when going to school. I am so lucky that it hasn't happened here in my town, but I know that it could happen. I wish nothing but the best for all the residents of Newtown and all the families of the victims.

Christmas spirit for you guys! I just watched the NBC Michael Buble Christmas special. Here is an original song by him, "Cold December Night". It's gorgeous! <3

<3 <3 Enjoy!

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! If I'm not on here again, I hope that everyone has a lovely Christmas and a wonderful New Year! And also that the world doesn't end... just yet... :)

love,

rachelrae xx

exams :(

Hey, I'm terribly sorry for not updating in so long. It's been really stressful lately, trying to prepare for exams and everything. Tomorrow marks midterms for me, and for me, it doesn't end until Saturday... :( so sad. But you know what, the faster I get this done, the faster I can get back on here and answer all your questions ... I'm really sorry for not getting to your questions! Remember that you all mean a lot to me... I'll be back, promise!


In the meantime, since Christmas is so close, we can almost taste the fruitcake, here is something to get you in the holiday mood:

Remember my main man, Jimmy Fallon? Not only is he funny, he is an amazing singer as well! Here he is with his backup band, The Roots, and the beautiful Mariah Carey singing her smash Christmas hit, "All I Want for Christmas is You".... with instruments that you might find in an elementary school music room... and you know what, it's amazing. I loved it, and I'm sure you will too :)

So goood <3

Anyways, STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! Enjoy the days leading up to Christmas... I know I will after exams end :)

Merry Christmas!

rachelrae xx

Just Haven't Blogged in 5Ever

So this is how it is? IT'S NOVEMBER.

I believe the last time I was here, I was raving about my one and only, the only person I can't have... Mr. Fallon Sir ;)

But yeah, I'm sorry for being so negligent. Tumblr URL has changed, and I'll be sure to change my sidebar :)

I already love the song "Your Body" by Christina Aguilera, but seeing this on LNJF was gold. Love it even more.. and the Roots are always amazing :)

So I was looking through my email, and now I feel even worse because I haven't been answering questions in so long! Feel so bad... but this Saturday, expect another update. I promise, promise, promise <3

HERE WE GO AGAIN:

Q: There is this guy that I really, really like, the problem is, he is totally in love with my BFF. I know because he told me, and wants me to help him get close to her. My best friend kinda likes him too. Help! - via Tumblr

JAAG: This is a tough one, because you love the guy and the girl who is your best friend. Who do you choose? Is the guy worth sabotaging your best friend's relationship with you? How far are you willing to go with this guy if he does choose you, and will you be able to make it through after the whole things blows over, especially if this relationship is just a fling? Is it worth that risk?
Ultimately, it comes down to familiarity and how much you are willing to sacrifice. If you don't know the girl really well, then it may not matter as much. Then again, you addressed this girl as 'your best friend', so you may want to think this one through a little more with much more thought just so that you don't make any rash decisions. Trust me, boys will come and go, but true friends are forever :)

Q: I can't choose between two girls, obviously, so what do you think? There is this girl in my English class who is a poet, and I love poetry. There is no other girl that I can talk to about Edgar Allan Poe and Robert Frost with other than her. The other girl is on the field hockey team, a sport that I play, and she is fierce at it. I'm kinda crushing on them both, but I can only choose one! Who should I go for? - Stuck in the Middle, via Email

JAAG: This one is all you, baby! :) It's your decision, not mine. You need to decide which girl is better for you, if either of them suffice. Most people go with the phrase "if you had loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second". This might hold true in your case: who DID you fall for first? Why did you fall for her first? Take some time to go over what you like about each girl, and talk to them more about your favourite things that they both share in common with you. See who you click more with, who you are more comfortable with. Maybe neither of them will be the one. Give yourself time and options before you make a decision, but don't fall for a third. It will just make things a lot more complicated than they already are.

Q: I'm falling behind in school, but I'm on the football team and honestly, I'm probably the best on the team. There is this girl that really likes me, but she says that she will only date me if I have really good marks like she does, and she is a straight A student. What now? - via Email

JAAG: Okay, is this girl really worth your time? Honestly. Ask yourself that. If she won't accept you for what you are good at, then maybe she isn't really a good person to have around as company. Good friends build each other up. They won't ask you to change (although, as a third party outsider to this situation, I would hope that you would try your best to bring your marks up!). Don't let her dictate your life, and better yet, see if you can bring those marks up. Surprise her. But until then, worry about getting your marks up and doing well in football... not impressing her :)

--- I believe that is enough for today! I realized that I haven't finished some homework yet... =.=" time to get back to work and not be distracted by the gorgeous Jimmy Fallon pictures on my Tumblr dashboard ;)

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! Enjoy life :)

love,
rachelrae xx

Simple, Easy, Straightforward

Firstly, I just would like to share this amazing British boyband that I have stumbled upon while listening to music on Youtube.... the amazing things you can find :') They were originally called The Grove but they have now changed their band name to Lawson. This is their new single, "Standing in the Dark" from their new album Chapman Squares. I was blown away by how good they sound together and the fact that they are all very cute <3

SO GOOD.

Anyhow, this week has been pretty easy and simple, which makes me happy. It gives me time to think and catch up with things that I may be behind on. You may have noticed that I began blogging regularly on the Saturday morning... hopefully that will continue. I can't promise that it will but I will try my best to do so and get to your questions ASAP :)

Here we go: I found some of these interesting. Where do you find the capacity to think up some of these questions? I guess we are all very curious beings... ;)

The first thing I would like to address is this Facebook status-y thing that has a bunch (I believe there are 50 of them) questions that was sent to be via email... some really, really random questions.....

Q: Please answer this as fully and extensively as possible. I feel like I don't really know you that well as a blogger. I know its a lot more questions from one person that you usually get, but this would mean a lot to me. My friend posted this on facebook and I would like to see how you do with this. - via Email.

JAAG: Um. Well, then, I will try my best. (my answers are in blue)
 Ever cheated on someone? How many times?:
I've never cheated on anyone because I've been cheated on myself. The feeling when you find out that you've been cheated on is the worst in the world, and I don't want anyone to feel that way.
 How old were you when you lost your virginity? Or if you are a virgin, what age do you think you’ll lose it at?:
 I'll lose it when I'm ready = after I'm married = currently do not know what age I will get married at.
Are you “in love” with somebody?
Currently, no,
 Have you ever done anything sexual on your parents bed?:
That would be disgusting, gross and down right strange. NO.
Ever been “the other person” in an affair?:
No. 
How many people do you have a crush on right now?:
At the present moment that I answer this, there is  no one. Honestly..
Ever had a one night stand?
no.
Ever gotten drunk and couldn’t remember the night?:
I don't even drink. I don't really like the taste onf any alcohol.
 Ever had a crush on your neighbor?:
Well, all the obys in my neighbourhood are really young, like, 4 years younger than me... and they are gross and immature.
 Ever snuck out of the house?:
Funny question, but no.
 If you’re underage, do you still drink and/or smoke cigarettes?:
I am underage, so no and no.
 Ever attempted suicide?:
Thought about, yes; tried, no.
 Ever been to therapy? What for?:
When I had Mollaret's, I had to go to therapy and rehabilitation because of the medicine.
 Have you ever been so upset that you stopped eating?:
For me it's the opposite: if I get upset I do eat. Not a lot, but I would still eat.
 Are you clinically depressed? Are you taking anything for it?
I suffer from situational depression. I'm not quite sure if it's clinical yet; there has been no set diagnosis.
 How old were you when you first got kissed?:
If we're talking pecks on the cheek, I would have to say 12. Sweet, innocent, pecks on the lips, 13. Total makeout, 16. It was last week.
 Ever been in a relationship and wanted to end it, but stuck with it for some reason?
If I was in a relationship that I was unhappy in, it didn't seem fair to stay in the relationship for the sake of being in a relationship and leading the other person on, especially when they still love you. I've been in situations like that twice, but  Inever stuck around just because. That would be unfair.
Did you ever run away? How long were you gone for and what happened?:
The childhood naiveness of running away and hoping that people will be sorry that they ever got angry at you or made fun of you in the first place... thought about it, never went through with it.
 Do you ever lie to yourself about things so much that you believe it?
As much as I can lie to people about being fine when they ask me 'how are you?', I know myself too well. I can't lie to myself because I'm too realistic with my goals and what I want for my life.
 Have you ever liked someone when you were dating someone else?
No, because to me, that's the step into the cheating territory, and cheating is bad.
. Ever dated a friend’s ex?:
No, because that is just wrong. I wouldn't want a best friend doing that to me, so likewise,  I shouldn't do that to them
 Ever done something with your friend’s significant other?:
No. that's wrong.
Did anyone ever confide in you about being gay/lesbian?:
Two people so far. My first ex told me while we were together that he was bisexual. I had a friend once that told me that she was a lesbian. I don't have anything against homosexual people, but it was strange to hear that she was in love with me.
Do you know of someone who has done a horrible crime but never got caught?
No
.Ever stole a large sum of money?:
No, my future is too important for me to have it tainted with a police record over money that isn't mine.
Ever got a piercing behind your parents’ back?:
I am scared of needles. I would want them to be with me when I get my first piercing.
 What’s your #1 biggest fear?:
SPIDERS
Have you ever faced that fear? What happened?:
I confront them on a day to day basis. I scream really loudly.

Q: Would you consider yourself and introvert or an extrovert? - via Twitter

JAAG: Good question. I think about that a lot. Sometimes I think of myself as an introvert, but other times I think of myself as an extrovert. I'm kind of an in between of some sorts; an introverted extrovert if that even makes any sense. Some days I can fair well in social situations, but some days I just really do not want to be talked to because it is awkward to me.

Q: Describe the best summer romance you ever had :) - via Tumblr

JAAG: Honestly, there have been a lot of flings that have happened that either the guy ended or I've ended, but each one was unforgettable. Now that I'm older, I have a little more freedom. This past summer I went on a cruise to the Bahamas and I met this guy.. he's my age and he's from the east coast. He is adorable <3 We spent a lot of time together and he took me dancing and we even pulled a Titanic on the front of the boat. Nevertheless, when the time came to say goodbye, we just held onto to each other and traded info. He did kiss me, and he looks amazing in a suit and tie <3

Q: You come across as a really literate person. What are you currently reading right now? - via Twitter

JAAG: Well gee, thanks for saying that I am smart and literate. I've been reading since age 3.
I currently am reading Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina. It is quite the love story. There are parts about Russian farming that I find dry so I skip those parts, but the actual love story complete with the affiars and the bitter betrayals keeps me up all night in anticipation, flipping through he book page by page. If you ever get the chance, I suggest reading it, and I'm not even done yet!

Q: Would you consider yourself a tea person or a coffee person? - via Tumblr

JAAG: I cannot call myself a coffee person because personally, the taste of regualr coffee (ie Americano, Colombian, etc) with cream and sugar is unappealing to me. I do however like lattes or mochas. I would call myself more of a tea person. I love tea, it keeps me awake and doesn't put me to sleep (coffee does, strangely enough.)

Q: What is the best part of your day? - via Twitter

JAAG: Being able to wake up alive. It's the best feeling in the world :)

So I thank you for all your questions... can you believe that September is basically over?? Where has the time gone, I feel so old... :')

Meanwhile, STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! Enjoy the last couple days of September, the sunshine, the Autumn breeze and the coloured leaves falling from the trees... I should be a poet. :P

love and such,

rachelrae xx

Thank God it's [Good] Friday

Hello everyone! Today is Good Friday, the day my Lord, my Saviour, died on the cross for my salvation and for the salvation of mankind. He extended His arms on the cross so that we might live. I am so blessed to be raised in such a religion and to live in a country where you have freedom of religion. Praise the Lord!

Today will not be a question answer post today. Nope, today will be a recap of life.

So how is everyone this fine evening that God has granted for us today? After a month and a bit since "the incident of all incidents, in my humble opinion", things have begun to look up. Everything seems to be on the better side of things, and I seem to have a slightly better handle on things than I did before.

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I didn't take the course of action that I did. Would things be different? Would I be a different person? Would we still be able to make the love last, even though in my eyes, we were coming to a close?

I guess there are no regrets. I should know better. I should know what I want, what not to do, and what I should be looking for before I stick my oar into the water. It saves you from a lot of trouble.

Love is forever, if it is with God.

Love is also blind, selfish, and deceitful. You don't realize that maybe, just maybe, the person that you are so in love with is actually the wrong type of person God wants you to be with. You don't realize that until you surrender yourself. It becomes selfish when you are only focussing on yourself and how perfect you want the love to be, by following your own agenda. It deceitful when you think you are doing the right thing, you think you are with the right person, you think that this really is true love, but you have already been deceived.

I hate to admit it, but that used to be me. I recognize that now. I understand that there really is no point in looking for something that does not exist. There is one match for me out there, and I know God has a plan for the two of us. I just can't see it yet.

Instead, focus more on what God wants you to do, instead of what you think God should do for you. It will save you more time to be happy.

This is a song that we were supposed to sing at the service. Unfortunately, too little time, many songs prepared. Oh well, have a listen....

"Above All" (from Youtube) - such a beautiful song. He was here for us, He made us, and He will always be here for us.

Questions next time, I promise you. STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE!

Have a wonderful and blessed Easter everyone!

love,

rachelrae xx

Thanks to all your awesome comments and ideas! :)

if you haven't noticed i seem to have a lot of time on my hands. this is probably why i am posting so regularly time and time again now (: but it's good! i get to reach out to all you lovely people.

so when i asked you all the question (that i posted, i believe, two posts ago?) i asked what you all thought about the whole situation. i got a lot of response, mostly through email etc.. some of it was pretty darn good, and i think that some of you could be better than me at this job. who wants to take over? :P

some of the stuff was quite insightful. also, for privacy, i will leave it all anonymous... but thank you, whoever you are, for all this new insight!

"Let time take it's course and see where you two end up. Who knows, you might end up marrying him... or marrying your current bf." - via Twitter

"I don't think that you should let him off the hook so easily. Don't bottle up the emotions inside! Tell him how you feel, but be impartial.. I have a feeling that the friendship you two share is too good to give away!" - via email

"Tell him off and tell him to get lost. He's not worth it!" - via email

"Is it okay if I smack him for you? You're too good of a blogger to let someone like him weigh you down!" - via email

"Who knows? Your paths might cross again." - via Twitter

"If he is too finicky then and now and can't make his mind up, watch out world: this guy is a player!" - via Twitter

"You should both set aside your feelings and try to mend your friendship. Right now, I'm getting the vibe that he really needs a friend."

"His friendship isn't worth your time. You can do so much better, and now, especially that you have a boyfriend... MAKE HIM SUFFER!!!!!" - via email


LOL, everyone. these are only a few of what i got from all of you. i posted these ones because they were insightful, my favourite or made me laugh. some of them were quite sweet, but you all are just like me: very, very undivided in terms of where to go with my friendship with him. the first one though was very very wise, however: "Let time take it's course". i think i found a winner, ladies and gentlemen. the JAAG will now let the universe take hold of the situation.

the last one that i put there, about the suffering, made me laugh the hardest. also, cheers to the person that said that my tweets to my boyfriend were 'cute'. ;)

this is a random song that i started listening to, entitled "Diary of Jane" by Breaking Benjamin. it's hard core rock and i like it very much :)

well that's it from me :)  STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! i pray that no one got any cavities from excessive candy snacking last night? ;)

love from the world wide web and beyond,
rachelrae xx

what did you expect?...5 more questions answered :)

Hello again world wide web. it is your favourite asian here, answering some more questions. also, thanks to everyone for the well wishes in response to my treatment! everything is going quite well, and today my doctor told me that if everything continues to go as planned, i should be able to end treatment earlier than expected! :) cheers to that!

So yes, there has been a mass response to the new Twitter account - thanks for all your questions! Here are 5 more that i thought i should answer... and let me tell you, they are getting better and tougher than ever before!

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1. What is the number one thing i shouldn't tell my girlfriend? she wanted me to start being honest with her. is there anything i shouldn't tell her.. even though she made me swear to be honest? -via Twitter

JAAG: this is a toughie, my friend. what do you tell and what do you not tell? if she asks for specifics (ie have you ever lost your virgnity to someone?) and it will affect you both if you lie, then i guess you should tell her the truth. after all, she deserves to know. wouldn't you want to know that your new gf/bf is not a virgin while you are?
also, i would stay away from topics concerning your ex. it is touchy territory. if she wants to tell you about her experiences, then be a good listener. but don't pry into her life... especially if you know the relationship ended badly. let her come to you if she wants to talk... and stay honest about most things!

2. my girlfriend is obsessed with her looks, and even though i constantly tell her she's beautiful, she refuses to agree. how can i tell her that she is? -via Twitter

JAAG: let me tell you now, it's not your fault that she is reacting this way. i can tell you from experience: as a girl, we usually don't come on as arrogant in terms of looks. heck, even if a girl says to us 'oh, your hair looks good today!' or 'you look so good in that outfit', 8 times out of 10, we will say something along the lines of 'nahh.. that's not true' because we are so emotional and we always have our guard up. now, when a boy comes along and says so, the first couple seconds (ESPECIALLY if we have a crush on you) we will be flattered... but then we'll brush the thought aside, just in case you don't actually mean it. from the boys i talked to, most of the time, especially if you like us back, you do mean it. LEGIT. try writing her a letter and tell her how you feel. be honest and concise and straight to the point. and that is very sweet of you to say that to her! :)

3. my ex and his new girlfriend showed up at a party that i was at and all of a sudden i felt kind of jealous. how can i push those jealous feelings away? -via BloggerMail

JAAG: the former flame, and you being thrown back into it. well, if you broke up with him, why did you break up with the guy in the first place? let that be a reminder to you on why you decided to end things. there is no need for you to feel jealous because you are moving on to bigger and better things. of course, easier said than done, but try to remember this: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, AND YOU DON'T NEED PEOPLE LIKE HIM TO BRING YOU DOWN.
now, if you are the one that was broken up with, i can see how you might be jealous. you want to know what she has that you don't. don't feel that way... just remember what i put in all caps up above ^^ and you will be just fine. one day you will find a boy that will accept you for what you are worth.

4. there are two boys that i like, and i sorta told both of them at the same time that i liked them both... so now i'm secretly dating both of them at the same time (thank goodness they go to different schools!) this is getting out of hand i need to know how to pull out of this. how can i do this and keep the friendship going? -via Twitter

JAAG: now this is a situation you should avoid at all possible costs. i'm sorry if this comes across as blunt, but there really isn't anyway for you to hold these friendships together, unless one of them is really, REALLY understanding.
to pull out of this situation, i would first suggest you talking to both of them; separately, of course. tell them what happened and that you are sorry. most times, this would end in both guys getting mad and the girl being left with no one. while that is the most likely and the most hurtful outcome, remember that you hurt them too by going out behind their backs. i hope that one of them is really understanding, but if not, now you know what not to do in the future. start off with being friends with everyone first... and then see where it goes.

5. i have a boyfriend, but recently i've felt more aattracted to girls. what am i going to do? -via email

JAAG: this is an interesting one. of course, i am no expert... but here's what i can offer. teenage life is a very tricky and confusing time. for all you know, this could be a phase... or maybe, this could be an indication to you that things between you and your boyfriend are going to fast, but you don't want to admit it (meaning: you don't really like girls, but you have this as a distraction/excuse typ of thing.)
if you feel that this relationship you are in now is going too fast, talk to your boyfriend about it. maybe you and him can come up with a common gorund. but under all circumstances, especially since you aren't totally sure yet, don't tell him about your feelings towards girls.
now, if you really, REALLY feel that you are truly attracted to girls, then i would suggest you looking into this. do some resaearch, maybe reading a couple reliable sources and see if you match the description. when you are ready, tell a trusted adult. if you aren't comfortable telling osmeone you know, call a help line. these are people that are trained to answer your questions. they can help you get answers and guide you to telling someone you trust.
best of luck!

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okay. as you can tell, these are very complicated questions and very complex answers. you all definitely made me think through what i wanted to say! :) thanks again for trusting me with your lives... i try the best i can to help, so with regards to the five people that asked the five above questions... good luck to you all with what you are going through.

wow, under a week until halloween. what are you all dressing up as? mine is a surprise... and i will tell you all when i post again (hopefully right after my halloween candy hangover) ;)\\

This is a new song that i'm kinda obsessed with by David Archuleta - "Good Place". it's such a sweet song.

now, i have a question for you, fellow readers. i'm kinda in a relationship now, but there is a guy who likes me and isn't really pestering me, but the silence between us tells me that something is up. and that bugs me even more. what should i do? it's you guy's turn to play JAAG, my friends. tweet me at http://twitter.com/JAAG143 or you can email me too :) next time around i will post all the great @replies that I get! thanks, and good luck!

so yes, that wraps up another blogging session. i can't believe i have been blogging for half an hour while my guy is outside playing football. let me tell you now: he is definitely a thousand times more fit than i am. i'm okay. i suck at sports though... but i am a whiz at typing! and wasting time too...

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE. peace out to all of you, stay safe and eat tons of candy on Halloween for me, aiights? ;)

love and such from your favourite Asian,
rachelrae xx

i'm writing about my celebrity crush?

so yes, i'm writing about my celebrity crush... this is actually voluntarily, considering it is an English assignment.

um, we'll get back to that. there has been this burning question that has been in my inbox.. i wonder how many times this person has actually sent it, considering it's the first and only thing that i see in my inbox whenever i log in...

so, um, here we go... I HOPE YOU"RE HAPPY ABOUT THIS. and thanks for spamming my email :)

Q: so i used to like this girl, but then she got a boyfriend. for a while i was really mad and jealous, but then i meet this guy in the library.. and all of a sudden we just clicked. so then i started dating him for a while.. but then sadly, we broke up. currently i have a girlfriend now.. so what exactly is my orientation? -via Email


JAAG: this is totally out of my league.

now that i have shaken off the confusion and read over your question a couple times, here is what i can offer, considering i am just a kid blogging. i have no idea when you people decided to ask me questions... about relationships, for that matter! so since i am not an expert, here is the advice that i can offer... my humble advice:

i guess it's a crazy time in our lives. we're all confused. i'm confused. you're confused. your ex-boyfriend is confused and your current girlfriend is also confused. keyword here is CONFUSED. haven't said that, but don't look into it so much as to say what 'orientation' you are. a close friend of mine once told me, "it doesn't matter what orientation you really are, just as long as you are comfortable in your own skin... and you don't commit any crimes while you are at it."

i say go for it. think about why you liked that guy in the first place. did something appeal to you about him? and then think about the girl. what is different this time around? of course it's going to be plenty different, but as long as you are comfortable with where you are now, you don't even need me to tell you otherwise. there isn't much need for us to define ourselves, but just to express our true selves.

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i hoped that helped somewhat.

i'm not really that smart..

check this out: my new favourite band, the Classic Crime, and their song "Who Needs Air" ..

i don't think this one has lyrics.. but the song is amazing. i love the song.

I'm drowning, but i don't care
Because when you got what i got
who needs air
I don't need air.

basically it talks about having all you need. and when you do, you won't even need air.

as much as life was pretty suckish before.. i'm starting to move on from my personal failures in life and going towards the direction of faithfulness and success.. and love.

yes, love.

love from my one true God, my family, friends, teachers, and everything else in between. this summer has made me stronger and i've learned not to let gossip get to me.

"I choose to live my life the way i want it to be. I don't plan on living your life, so don't you dare try to go and live mine."

ooh, and let's do one more question while we're at it...

Q: When is it right to go all the way? - via bloggermail


JAAG: honestly? i have no idea. this is probably gonna be one of my shortest replies yet.

basically, if you think that you are ready and that your bf / gf is ready, then i guess you can go for it. but you have to keep in mind the aftermath: are you ready for all the potential responsibilities that will be coming your way? are you ready to be a parent? if your answer is no, then i suggest you wait it out until you can sustain yourself, your love and your new child.

of course this is a very trivial and controversial topic.. so i'm just gonna stay out of this while i can. but of course, the safe way to do this is to WAIT. WAIT. WAIT! :D good luck with whatever you choose to do, though!


well, that's a wrap for me from behind the computer screen. STAY OUTTA TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! good luck to everyone in school this year - and a shout out to the JV football team. hope you guys win your game!

love and etc,

rachelrae xx

What I Taught Myself to Do....is answer your relationship questions :)

... is apparently many things, especially if it has to do with love and relationships. i personally don't know how i managed to learn so much, but i guess reading, and experience all come into play. :)

i've actually been asked quite a few questions through email concerning this blog and DMs on twitter from guys and girls alike (shocking). so let's call this...

... "the love questions answered by that random asian kid, JustAnotherAsianGirl" ...

here we go...

1. My GF constantly goes around telling people and her friends that we aren't together, but totally sucks up to me when we are alone. i know this because one of my friends told me that my GF told him. what do I do now? -via Twitter DM

JAAG: well, my advice is that honestly, this girl isn't being honest to you. a relationship is based on trust and respect... so tell me, what type of respect is this when your GF goes around telling others that you aren't 'together' or how much she hates being with you? this is almost as bad as two-timing, and my advice is to confront this girl pronto, before she leaves you high and dry.

2. Sometimes i think that i'm not good enough for my boyfriend. i think this just because recently, whenever i would ask him if he wanted to hang, he would make up some excuse saying that he was 'busy'. i know now that this is not the case because one time he said he was 'busy', i saw him at the mall with a couple of his friends and an unknown female friend. what's the deal? -via email


JAAG: oh dear. sometimes, as much as girls love boys for their protection and support, sometimes they don't appreciate the fact that girls are more sensitive to their male counterparts; hence, we crave the attention and love. [of course this doesn't apply to every girl and boy].  i would say, talk to your guy. let him know how you feel. ask him if there is anything bothering him.. and as difficult as it is, don't jump to conclusions right away. find the common ground between you and him and your relationship should be smooth sailing. :)

3. How do i get a guy to notice me? -via BloggerMail


JAAG: the timeless question that every girl wants to know the answer to, including yours truly. in order for one to get into a successful relationship with a guy that truly cares for them for who they are, firstly, BE YOURSELF! don't reinvent yourself to make yourself seem more compatible for your cutie. Is your crush a meat chomping, football player who doesn't know the difference between geometry and geography, while you are a conservative, honour roll student who's a vegan? chances are, even if he does fall for your gorgeous looks, you'll have problems when you go out on dinner dates. my advice for you is to keep your options open and don't tie yourself down just yet... hang out with your girls, keep the cliques to a minimum, and sooner or later, the right guy will come to sweep you off your feet!

4. when should i tell a girl 'i love you'? - via Twitter DM


JAAG: wow, a sensitive guy, a rare find! :) well, congratulations to you on making your relationship work for you like this! now, because every girl is different (obviously i am different from your GF immensely), you have to work it in according to her. find a moment when it's (obviously) just the two of you, maybe while on a date or something. take her by the hand and look into her eyes to show sincerity, and tell her those words. two points though- make sure that it's a couple dates (or even a couple months) into your relationship, and don't rush things: as much as i can break down how and when and where you should do this, ultimately, if you feel that the time is right, then go for it. good luck!

5. There's this girl i really liked, but while i liked her she had a boyfriend, so i got a girlfriend, just to take my mind off of her. then she broke up with her boyfriend and while i was with my girlfriend, we kind of had a friction filled friendship. now that i'm broken up with my girlfriend, i feel like i'm falling in love with the girl i originally loved. what do i do now? -via BloggerMail


JAAG: it's almost like you're living my life! wow, surprisingly enough, i've been through a similar circumstance, so i know how you feel..somewhat. (i was the girl in your situation, just some FYI)
so, what do you do now? well, i guess firstly, you should make sure that you are completely over your old girlfriend and make sure that she is completely over her old boyfriend... that way, you can avoid any chance of 'rebounding', which sometimes is very demeaning to some. then, try to rebuild the friendship: you said there was a bit of friction? try to ease it up: write her a letter, send her a song, call her... do something meaningful that will tell her how you truly feel AS FRIENDS. when you feel that you have finally broken past all the old friction, gradually do things to show her how you truly feel as SOMETHING MORE. i can tell you first hand that girls really want to know that the guy is making an effort to prove a point, and that most of us appreciate the small little gestures.. if you get the message across loud and clear, then she'll know how you really feel about her.. and that's what girls love the most: no mixed signals! of course, you must follow through with it and stay consistent, so if you think that this is just a phase and it will eventually pass, don't even bother. but if you feel that it will last a little longer and maybe turn into LOVE <3, then go for it.... proceed with caution :)

6. is it bad to date my ex's best friend after i dumped him? -via Twitter DM


JAAG: unfortunately, yes it is. it's basically like you going out with your best friend's ex boy friend. there is a certain level of trust that you build up with your friend, and this breaks the trust that you have built with her. likewise, boys have their own trust that they build up between themselves, even though on the exterior, it may not seem like it.
what i can suggest is that try your best to keep your options open, and try not to tie yourself down. if you keep convincing yourself that your ex's best friend is "The One", chances are you will act on it. try your best to keep a look out, but keep him on your radar, but not all the time. when you feel that you and your ex have COMPLETELY (and i mean COMPLETELY) moved on from each other, make a subtle (SUBTLE) move; maybe a simple wave or smile when you see him in the halls, a simple conversation.. stuff like that. don't be too fierce, and you'll see how far it gets you.

7. how do i get my summer fling to be my boyfriend when school restarts? we go to the same school and are in the same grade and stuff, but i don't know if things will change just because school is starting... and i really like him too! -via Twitter DM


JAAG: well, is it 'just a summer fling' or 'something more'? ask yourself this question. chances are, if he feels the same way you feel about him , you'll start seeing him a lot more often than you once did. he'll make his way to see you, especially if he likes you. if he hasn't done anything on the first day, shoot him a text with maybe an inside joke from the summer or tag him in a Facebook picture of you and him from the summer, or write on his wall. do something small to initiate to the two of you our feelings.
however, if he doesn't reply to your texts or do anything about your picture or even say a simple 'hi' by the time a week/month/couple months have gone by, chances are this was just a summer fling. while you are disappointed that this relationship didn't last, hey, you saved yourself a lot of trouble: guys like this tend to be known as 'the player' and they get around pretty quickly. if you had gotten together with him, (of course this is speculation) there could be a chance of him cheating on you or just using you to get another girl. for now, focus on the task at hand: getting good grades, making the volleyball team, singing lead in the school's annual musical, fundraising for a future trip... and worry about guys when the worthwhile ones come along. :)


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WOW~! these are just some of the many questions i have received ever since the last post... i didn't even know that i was capable of being a so-called 'love guru'! thanks for making this happen, and i definitely will answer more questions, but you got to send them in!

well, there are approximately two more weeks until school starts for me today. not counting the day of, there are 13 more days until school starts. feelings are mixed: happy, anxious, disappointed, overjoyed...

well, you know my motto: STAY OUTTA TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! here's a feel good song for you to enjoy while you anxiously await the coming of school..

"I Want You" by Fefe Dobson ..

Good luck to everyone in the coming school year! peace out and live it up, life only gets better...


rachelrae xx

two down, three more to go...

... meaning work. my job. meh, it's fine and all. if you like chilling with little children all day who have no regards for manners and fight and bicker over the tiniest of tiny things. it's ghetto but fun at the same time.

hey, someone once said that work builds character. i believe that...

so, 21 more days until school starts! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY! >>>>>> .................

what's the deal, kids? are you winning?

'Time to Win' by Down With Webster... the boys who understood the 'duh, winning' motto long before  Charlie Sheen came around :)

i'm actually really excited for school , so don't burst my bubble or whatever.



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i learned something new the other day, that maybe i should have a long time ago.

i was hung up over a guy that i couldn't have, and it made me sad and depressed when i should have forgot him (hello, Cee Lo Green!) and moved on.

but i didn't.

so now what i understand is that if i forget, then i can move on, be more happy and live my life. get somewhere, some how, in my own pace and time. and i am proud to say that i found someone to love.

i did. and i thought that i wouldn't be able to because this person left such  a scar on my heart, after he used me and broke my heart. </3

but it's all good now. i think that in time to come, he'll be coming back to me trying to win back my forgiveness... but by that time it will be too late for him. i'll 'find someone someday who might actually treat me well' ...

(credits from this amazing song from this amazing singer, 'White Horse' by Taylor Swift)

well, whatever. if he doesn't want me and wants to spend his days with some random girl who doesn't love him the way i do, then too bad, his loss.

I bet you I'm winning, I bet that you're not.

gotta love Down With Webster - 'Whoa is Me' :) they always have something awesome to say ;)

well, gotta split. it's beginning to look a lot like parents running off to Wal-Mart to buy school supplies, and the summer sun has begun to fade, sadly enough. oh well... seasons of love, baby. gotta love school.. for the friends and awesome teachers i mean, erm....


stay good for the rest of the vacay, you only got so many days left to spend in the sun. and before you know it, you'll be back in the classroom for another ten months of pure educational enjoyment. LOVE IT WHILE IT LASTS!

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! i'll keep the countdown posted every so often, hopefully as often as i can fit it into my schedule. a girl's gotta plan her grand entrance for the first day back, y'know, with SWAG.

21 more days. 21 more days. 21 more days...

..where did summer go, and how did it go by so fast???

love and etc..

rachelrae xx

I thought it was summer?

hello everyone.

so it's summer, right? well, i'm spending the summer writing notes for musical history. it reminds me of school, the only part that i don't particularly enjoy :)

but yeah, there are 27 more days left until school starts. i'm really excited! haha, probably the only online blogger that you'll see that is excited about school. i like seeing my friends and teachers and chilling at school with them, and not at home, bored out of my mind.... LOL

"Summer Girl" by Stereos <3 cute song!

how is everyone's summer going? my summer is going pretty swellular, actually. the weather is nice, music is going pretty good, and life is everything i really want it to be.

so i can't complain.

but, this is what i really am excited for:

LIFE WILL GO ON! SCHOOL IS HERE SOON!

stay out of trouble and don't forget to smile! cheers, ladies and gents! :D

rachelrae xx

(: where did you go, summer? // JCV-L

Heyy i was just wondering the same thing! ...

old classic redone by the one and only Michael Buble. "Summer Wind", ladies and gentlemen. i believe it is Frank Sinatra that made this one famous :)

So. it's almost the end of July. i reckon that schools are very generous to put summer vacay in these two months. after all, these two months [July and August] both have 31 days consecutively AND are in the same year as well. plus, a week off the end of June, a week off the beginning of September and yeah. 10 weeks or awesomeness

or 10 weeks of pure boredom, pick your poison :P

but now we're halfway through the summer already? where did time fly off to?

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I'd like to take some time to dedicate this to my dearest friend, one of my besties, that was tragically taken away from her family and friends far too soon.

Jessica Cassandra Verde-Leon, one of a kind, one in a million. She always smiled, and was never rude, and always took the high road instead of bringing down her trustworthiness. Responsible and respectable, this chica was going places in life.

An aspiring singer and dancer, her dreams were cut short way too soon because of a drunk driver. She leaves behind her mom and dad, her older brother Justin and younger sister Jay, her grandparents and many, many friends who all loved her dearly.

Fly in Paradise, Jess. You will be missed. JCV-L 1996 - 2011

this was her favourite song.

This is "We'll Be A Dream" by We the Kings, one of her favourite bands, and a band that she introduced me to.

We love you, Jess.

Stay out of trouble and don't forget to smile. And to anyone who thinks that drinking and driving is a safe thing to do, think again.

rachelrae xx

Something the lovely Aaron Chan (@_aaronchan) made up for my lovely blog. :)

Forever falling

sAme time, day after day,

falLing, one by one, out of the sky

liveLy and amazIng.

iNtricate desiGn

aS They shine in the night

i don't think i cAn eveR compare

their beauty to yourS.

stay out of trouble and don't forget to smile, my lovelies. :)

rachelrae xx

Hello.

Summer like weather has finallly  arrived in my area. I am so happy, it's finally here and sunny and everything else that's nice. :)

So what's new with you? Nothing, if you call completing all necessary training to be a legit staff member with the City nothing! I just  finished up training this afternoon, and I'm thrilled about my progress :)

"Parachutes and Airplanes" by the lovely guy himself, David Archuleta <3 love this song! Just another song to get your spirits high for the summer ---

excitement is in the air. it goes both ways though - on one hand, i love summer. i love to debrief and chill. it's wonderful to live life slightly differently and help out in day camps with children. that makes you smile.

on the other hand, i can't wait til school starts up again.

and guess what? it's almost july 17th. the same day that i said in an old facebook status that i would start missing school and counting down the days until it starts in september.

"September" by Daughtry - how ironic.

i called it though, ladies and gentlemen ;)

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE :) have a pleasant summer!


rachelrae xx

Sorry to any American readers but....

Hello, and happy belated Canada day.

How ironic, on the 4th of July too. oh well. i wasn't on my blog on Canada day for unspecified reasons. but what really got me when i woke up this morning was not because it was independence day but because it is already july. OH. MY. GOODNESS.

yeah. super bowl and the american national anthem for the win. just out of respect :)

so yeah, how's it going for everyone? i hope that summer is treating you all well. another thing that caught me this morning was that there are only 10 weeks in summer and one has already passed us by.

what happened?

you're probably wondering why i am wondering all these things. here's my answer - I'm a glass both half empty and half full type of a person. just saying.

what's cool - the royal couple coming to visit our country! :) random thought...

and a random song!!! :) :) :)

All Again For You by We the Kings.

okay, well thats about a wrap. i hope that everyone's summer is a good one, and if anyone is going away then i hope you and yours stay safe! come september, we'll all be wishing that it was summer could go on and on. but for now, let's just bask in the summer sunlight. :)

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON;T FORGET TO SMILE! summer loving!

rachelrae xx

hey! check it out... :D

Simple Plan ft. Natasha Bedingfield - 'Jet Lagged'

This is one of the newer Simple Plan songs, but a really, really nice one. I really like this one. I should watch the video sometime...

So, I hope that everyone's summer is going well so far. The first day of summer was June 21st, but still.. it's never too early to ask how everyone's summer is going! :)

Wow. It's June, so it's kind of like, 2011 is halfway through. I can't bring myself to say 'halfway gone' because that sounds really depressing... but yeah, 2011, halfway through? REALLY? ALREADY?! D:

Yeah, so check this out... this is called 'Summer Lovin' (Perfect)'

When I first saw you that day in the summer

I fell for you faster than ever

Imagining all the things we could have been

Having a rough time letting you go

What we had was perfect

What i saw in you was perfect

that day by the water

under a vast blue sky

it was just you and i

and now it's gone

the image of us gone...summer lovin'

Sitting there in September waiting to hear your voice again

the leaves start to fall, like our love through my fingers

all the things i wanted, never came true 

having a rough time seeing this through

What we had was perfect

What i saw in you was perfect

that day by the water

under a vast blue sky

it was just you and i

and now it's gone

the image of us gone...summer lovin'

waiting for you in the snow as it...as it falls like pride from my eyes

waiting for you as the flowers start to bloom, stuck under showery skies

what we had was perfect

what i saw in you was perfect

i swear i got to you under the summer sun

it was just you and i... and now it's gone

the image of us gone...

What we had was perfect

What i saw in you was perfect

that day by the water

under a vast blue sky

it was just you and i

and now it's gone

the image of us gone...summer lovin'

this is my new, actual legit song named Summer Lovin'. I don't actually know who this is about..but yeah, I finally have a legit song! :)

well, hope that this summer will inspire people to find summer love...but hopefully, yours will stay true all through the year unlike the tone of this song. ;)

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! Peace and love and such...

rachelrae xx

summer!

hello everyone! sorry that i haven't posted in a while. a friend of mine recently got me hooked onto tumblr, a micro-blog/reblogging extravaganza site. check it out: http://raeraeraexx.tumblr.com
i'll warn you now: Big Time Rush everywhere on my blog. maybe 90%? the other 10% is cute stuff that either i reblogged or random stuff that i post.

but enough on that.

um, i forgot to mention that it was... SUMMER TIME! :D

i just had to put this in...High School Musical 2, with the song "What Time is It?" (y'know, summertime!)

alright, so it's June. it's still a tad chilly outside, but hopefully the sun will decide to show itself, and SOON!

also, a belated HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all the Dads, Grandfathers, Stepdads, whoever's Dad you are, i hope that you had a great day! :)

i'm really happy that school is out, exams are finished, and that we can confidently say that we can avoid HS drama for 10 glorious weeks. nothing but chilling.

but i am aware that maybe halfway into the vacay, i'm going to be begging to go back to school. maybe not you, but for sure, i will be.

CALLED IT! xD

so, before i sign off this post, i would like to thank everyone for their kind support over the last little while. i would also like to tell everyone that as of tonight, i will start the '150 Days of Music' challenge. everyday i will post a song by some artist/band as a status and explain the significance behind it to me. i might even dedicate a couple to you! ;) i guarantee no song repeats (hopefully!) but i can't guarantee band/artist repeats, especially Big Time Rush <3

check it out sometime... http://facebook.com/raeraerae4


alrighty then! i hope that you will join me in my 150 Days of music.

i hope that everyone has a relaxing and safe summer! STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! school's out for the summer...let's make the most of it, shall we? :)

love & etc., rachelrae xx

It's a wonderful day :)

this is via http://tasteofawesome.com/ ... clever stuff there on that site :P

so it is already May guyys :) i can't believe it. this is just another random post because i have nothing better to do but to chill ;) and to blog and write random things. because that's what i was born to do = be random = LOL

shoot, everyone who looked at that picture just lost the game. ooh, i should give you some more music to listen to because music makes my day and it should make yours. hahaha...

Kiss A Girl by Keith Urban. It's country which i'm not particularly crazy about but it's Keith Urban is dead awesome. i love Keith Urban. he rocks and he's Austrailian.

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erm i haven't answered any of your random questions yet. i checked my messages yesteerday on twitter and my email. and you people jammed my email! sheesh, i should just leave it to formspring and twitter to do all the question collecting...if that makes any sense...

so someone asked me the other day what i did in my spare time.

my question to this person is, WHAT TYPE OF QUESTION IS THAT??

so to answer your question, anonymous. i like to blog in my spare time. because if i didn't have any spare time, i wouldn't be able to answer your question. i also like to go on twitter (hell yeah 1000+ tweets!) :D

i also like music- listening to it, playing it and writing it because music is my life, and without music i don't have a life so there.

next random question, goodness i am scared for my life -_-"

do you like music?

i just answered that. the short answer to that is life=music=my life or bust. thank you for asking and please play again! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

this is actually funny even though i am Chinese...but i agree with the kid, that is an awkward face -_-

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! it's may the 4th today...so may the forth be with you! lololol laaame...

love, rachelrae xx

nothing better to do but...

...BLOG! :) hey hey hey it's a really rainy day (that was an unintentional rhyme) :)

i'm really tired right now. what do you do when your best friend is sick but to pray and hope for the best ): sad face.

gym class was a fail today. we played softball and i kinda sucked at it. i can be there all day and still not get a hit.

thankfully i had a glimmer of hope (or maybe God was shining down on me in pity) and finally hit the freaking softball after who knows how many hits....it was sad.

so let's provide you with some awesome music for you to listen to...hmm i think that i should give you some Push Play for your enjoyment... :) :)

PUSH PLAY - This is Us Breaking Up (Better Off) -- one of my favorite break up songs, but of course, there is no need for that kind of hate towards anyone yet...hopefully not now and not ever !

RANDOM THOUGHT. i think that the world can benefit from no hate. if we all stopped hating each other for their imperfections or stopped hating ourselves for our own imperfections, the world would be a smoother and happier place. no joke. #onethingiwouldchange random twitter trending topic from a long time ago...

so the Canucks won Game 7 on home ice. (they better have. or else there would have been a riot and people could have died.) we beat out our long lasting rivals the Chicago Blackhawks (if there is anyone from Chicago reading this, please do not sue. and peace be with you.) out of round one, so now we are onto round 2. i think we are up against Nashville...but only time will tell :)

sigh. my better half of me is at home. i pray that my better half gets better soon. what fun is school when you are your own worst enemy and you don't have your better half to bring out the sun through the clouds?

anyhow, i'm pretty much done online journaling for the day (if that even makes sense....) well, there really is nothing better to do when it's raining outside. praying for some sun...

STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! praying for sun...and you all. :)

love, rachelrae xx

tribute to my favorite songs :)

title is pretty self explanatory...just something i put together. enjoy! ;) MUSIC FOR LIFE BABY!

Barely Legal - Push Play

Godspeed - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Good to You - Marianas Trench feat. Jessica Lee

You and I Tonight - Faber Drive

Whoa is Me - DOWN WITH WEBSTER!!

Worldwide - Big Time Rush <3

Always on Your Side - Sheryl Crow feat. Sting

Footprints in the Sand - Leona Lewis

That 70s Song - The Cab

Teenage Dream - Katy Perry

Over My Head (Cable Car) - The Fray

aww yeah :) that right there are some of my favorite songs right off the top of my head. there are plenty more, but let's give your ears a break and your mind a rest...i will do this again some time, and of course, there is plenty of opportunity for REPEATS!!

new domain name to suit the blog! :) :) STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AND DON'T FORGET TO SMILE! :)

rachelrae xx